I went to Sentosa yesterday with boyf, his friend and his friend's friends.
It was scorching HOT, I mean, everything over there. lol.

It's quite boring actually.
The guys went off to play basketball, leaving me alone to burn myself under the stupid sun.
Grrr.
Luckily boyf decides to accompany me.
If not I believe I'll be burning in flames.
=P

We had a lovely day afterall.
Hee.
Not forgetting the lovely sunburn. =.=

Dang dang dang.
Street Fighter!!
Chun Li!!!
Actually, the movie's okok. Watch if you're bored. Haha.
But i do find Chun Li damn cool.
Oh my oh my.
I still remember last time when I'm in primary school, i have this friend that kept calling me Chun Li cuz my name is only 2 letter lesser than that.
Only if I'm half of how she is ah. I'll be damn happy.

Did I ever mention that school's posponed till April 27th?
And my boy's going army in about 2 weeks time!
So that means that nobody's accompanying me to school on the first day. =((

And ya la. Although it feels very pathetic and sad, I still need to find a job for my survival.
This is damn damn damn sad can.
I wanna get a pair of shoes, I have to wait and wait.
Months after months, I still haven get it cuz I'm afraid that I don't have enough money to survive the month.
But what about that idiot?
He just buy what he want, branded somemore.
Fuck la.
I only have my Guess wallet, which is worn out and old.
What about him?
Wallet, shirts, pants, bags, shoes, bla bla bla. Everything is fucking branded.
This is what they call fair and not bias?
This is their so called life a women should have?
I'm expected to do everything when I'm 21.
He's fucking ccb going 23 and all he's expected to do is to wash his dishes, and it doesn't matter if he don't.
Don't tell me it's what girls are suppose to do.
FUCK YOU if you say that.
Seriously, I'm looking forward to the day where i can ditch everything here.
I won't even look back when the day come.

I need a job.
A well-paid and flexi-time job.
Better still if i can sit at home, shake my leg and the money just come into my account.
=.=







Oh well, I'm back to writing songs.
Is that a good thing?
It's time, for me to have another crash in my confidence.

The Cinderella Pact.

I've finished reading this novel and it's awsome. wow.
Go figure out.

It's amazing. There's plenty of exciting and you know, good and tasty (o.0) novels out there that I wanna read. Heh

And there's this book that i wanna buy.


Can anyone tell me why? lol.
I browsed through that book before, and definitely, i wanna have it. Haha.

Was out for a movie trip with my boy and cousins yesterday, and I love it~ =D

I watched THIS.
It's so and so, and the story's okay-okay. Haha.
Watch it if you're bored. Not really a must.

And i bumped into Joel yesterday. He's in army and wow, so much tanner and fitter.
Boys are so fortunate. They have free gym.
But no, I'm not saying that girls should be in army.
Yea.
Seeing him make me realise that it has been ages since i catch up with my friends (if i still have any). lol.
On another note, school's starting and I'll be meeting new friends. And i truly hope that they are nice people.

Dinner was thai food~
We're at this foodcourt, and the thai food seemed to be popular. So we tried green curry (my fav), the sweet and sour pork and what? garlic pork??
Seriously, Thai Express' green curry is still the best green curry I've ever tried.
The green curry at that foodcourt is a lil to generous on the coconut milk and it's kind of diluted.
But both the pork dishes are nice, except that I find them a lil too salty.
Oh and the drinks there are atrociously expensive.

Some random photos!

Boy and cousin.

Tsk! Teach the kid bad things. =.=

Ya la you see! Now he loves you so.




But I know you loves me!
Haha.





Lastly,
Here you go~

Ain't I cute?

My little prince.

I am craving for a sweet, romantic and lovely time.

Oh my oh my oh my.

The cramps are getting from bad to worse.
I have no idea why.
Maybe I'm down with some illness or some unwanted growth in me that will cause me to depart from this world in a few years time.
Ha-ha.

I wonder, how am i going to work in such a state?
Is there any ways to reduce the cramps?
It's not any ordinary cramps, mind you. If I'm a sadist, I will take the knife and tore myself up to check what's wrong alright.
It's THAT bad.

In the past, it's only fainting spells and slight discomfort.
But now, it's PAIN. Too much pain. Too much pain that I can't bear with it.
It's causing me to hurt like an old lady with broken bones.

I've tried many ways to stop (or should i say, reduce) the pain. But obviously i failed.
I rolled on my bed.
I wrapped myself up into a cocoon.
I curled up in a corner of my room, and in the toilet just in case i gonna puke.
I bathe and bathe and bathe; warm water, cold water.
I tried to sing the pain away, but the pain got over me instead.
I tried to read it off, but no, the chocolate lovers' club couldn't save me.
I popped pills, but they're useless.
I focused on the tv show, but no, it can't distract me.
I drank a glass of warm milk tea. Totally useless although the milk tea is delicious.
So i tried with cold milk instead. It doesn't help at all.
Maybe plain water will. But i was wrong too.
I tried Pilates, but I'm too in pain to stretch.
I wanna try Yoga, but I know none.
So what now?

Gosh i feel like dying even more. =((
And the rain is making me feel blue.
The pain is making me green.
The agony is making me see black.

Oh my, what a colorful world I'm in.

My current addiction is

The Chocolate Lovers' Club by Carole Matthews!
o.0 I can imagine how sexy and beautiful Chantal is, and the book makes me feel like having chocolate~.
Long time since i indulge in one.
Maybe I should go get myself a Mars bar.
=D

I'm having a bad stomachache + cramp lately.
It's so bad that it woke me up this morning at 7am.

This is strange. =(

I am feeling sick.
I am hungry.
I am craving for MOS Burger. o.0
I am bored.
I am missing my boy, although we fought (literally) yesterday but his apology at night is enough to make me feel loved.
I am feeling unwanted and redundant, cuz I can't find a job.
I am feeling useless; my family never fail to remind me that I am.
I am depressed. Always am especially nowadays.
I am seeking for death. =D

haha.
What a joke of the day.

My day is spoiled, once again.
I am feeling depressed.

It makes me wonder.
When will there be a day whereby i can decide what i wanna do and live my own life instead of listening to others and doing what others want me to do.
I am always living life the way others want me to.
I have to do this, have to do that, can't do this, can't do that.
Helping others or taking instruction from others seem to be what I'm exist for.

I mean, it shouldn't be counted as one of my priorities right? Not say it's something that concern life and death.

When will it be the day when i can say 'No' without anyone reprimanding at me or question me with lots of question till i decided that it's too much for me to handle and said 'Yes' instead?

I don't know, i felt lost.
I always am.
Can anyone respect me and my choice?
I quitted school, my family looked down on me and think that I am a shame.
I said i wanna rest before i start studying again.
But they say I'm wasting time.

You ask me to help you with something, I don't like it and say 'No'.
You ask me why why why and started quarelling with me, and when i say that I don't like it at all, you just say that whenever we quarrel, i will say that I don't like.
But do you realise why I will say 'No' in the first place?
Yes, the comp is old and it can't stand the work for so long.
And why are you getting so frustrated when I don't wanna help you with your game?
And it's only a game for goodness sake.
Shouldn't we be growing up and be vexed about money and life instead of game?

The air is cold, and it doesn't feel fresh.
I felt a tinge of disappointment.

It's raining.

I watched 'Watchmen' on Friday night.
It's the longest movie I've ever watched after 'Troy'.
And you don't need me to tell you how nice it is; you can judge by the loud snore coming from behind me.
The movie is crappy.
Too draggy - it's around 2.5hours for goodness sake.
Content wise sucks - Kinda childish. lol
And i don't understand why superheros are so, unfit. Din't hit the treadmill for too long? o.0

The only character i like is Rorschach.
And the best scene will be the big havoc in prison.
How cool it is to saw (it's a verb here) the fatty's arm, both of them!
Rorschach is so cool. But if he exist in real world, it's hell.

Anyway, here's some movie that i wanna watch.

Marley & Me. Doggy and love flick, an all-time fav.

Let the Right One In - VAMPIRES!

The Pink Panther 2 - Bimbo flick, i love.

And not forgetting,

Coming Soon.


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Scare the shit out of you when you visit the cinema (i suppose).


=D
Movie posters in this entry are from the Cathay website.
I love the Cathay cuz as a UOB card holder, I get to enjoy tix at the price of $6 and $8 instead of the usual $10?

o.0 and I have gotten my annual fee waived cuz I billed my school fee of 1.6k to my card~ lol.
You will have to bill a total of, i think, around 2k(?) before you can get the waiver.

I think,

that being a copywriter is so cool!

Maybe, I can get some books on basic copywriting, then write something, and send it to some companies that are looking for freelance copywriter. LOL.

*Dream on lah!*
Tsk, as if copywriting is so easy.

I'm done with Shopaholic & Baby!

It took me 2 days to finish it. =D
How i wish i was Becky. lol.

I'm looking for a book that acts like a divine-lot-kinda thing.
You know, those that you hold the book thinking of a question, and then randomly open it and there'll be this advice on that page.
That's so cool, and I'm so gonna get it.

Life is so boring.
I tried searching for jobs but to no avail. =(
So how am i going to survive?
School's starting soon, and i can't survive without a job.
This is so sad.

Alright.
Shall start reading another book.

Fancy some nice love novels?


When in Rome.
I've mentoned this earlier on. It's a must to read this.

A Question of Love.
I've just completed reading this. It's touching.
Laura's husband went missing for 3 years, only to return to notify Laura that he's married and has a new-born, and of cuz to apologise for the missing act.
What i love most is how she got herself back with Luke, but Magda goes nuts about it, and how she fell in love with Tom in the end.

Right now, it's SHOPAHOLIC & BABY!
I know I'm slow but i can't afford to buy the book, and can't afford to borrow the book from bookstores, so ya.
I found it in the library.
I used to like the series, but now, i find it a tad too bimbotic now.
But it's still nice. =)

I'm accepted by MIS, and lesson will start on 23 March.
And I'm suppose to go down and pay my school fees by 11 March.

The other day, my mum hand me the fees, she nagged at me to go find a job.
And minutes later, my dad came in and ask me to look for a job.

NOT SAY I DIN'T GO AND FIND YEA?

Someone, tell me why.
Why is it that they can give their son a monthly allowance of fucking 700bucks, allowing him to go for branded stuff (almost ALL his stuff are branded), and enjoy the air-con almost once every week when his gf pops by?
While for me, initially i get 400/mth, then it dropped to 350/mth, and now, 300/mth.
Days where i get 400 and 350 are when I AM still in school. Mind you, they includes transport fee too.
So may i ask, what's the difference in expenses when you're in poly and when you in uni?
So is uni's food more ex? or you need to pay more for transport when you're in uni?
crap dude.
He's enjoying branded stuff, and for me, I'm struggling to have enough.
He don't have to work and get 700 every month.
I've calculated, that even if i work part-time, i can hardly get 700 every month.
What's more, i have to pay for my own handphone bill too, which he DOESN'T.
So to think about it, I can hardly have 600/month after minus-ing out the handphone bill.
Minus the transport fee, the most i can use is 400.

I know, the family's not very well off, and we'll getting low on cash.
I'm not asking for more allowance!
All i'm asking is for them to reduce his allowance and all, then the burden won't be so great?
Isn't it?

So this is what they call being fair.
I go earn my own money so that they can make ends meet and satisfy their son's branded wants.
o.0 So i am indirectly paying for HIS wants.
Fuck it. I seriously don't understand.

If things are getting difficult, DON'T try to be stubborn and think that you can do it.

Ask for some fucking help, and be fair at the same time!

Sometimes, i just feel so disheartening to exist in such a world with such a stupid situation.